So it begins

I thought I'd start with a brief introduction about me, my career, hobbies, etc. This should swiftly and harmlessly bypass the dreaded "ice-breakers", you know those silly conversations that new employers make their new recruits engage in. I find ice-breakers truly uncomfortable. I am much happier being left to my own devices and making allies/foes on my own. Thanks for the attempted assistance, however.

About Me

Name: Nathan Cashman

Age (at time of writing): 20

Job Role: Second Line Technical Fault Analyst

Drive: Yes. A Citroen C3 (don't dare make jokes, I've heard all of them before)

Relationship: Yes. Baby numero uno en route.

My Job

I work for a well know telecommunications provider, delivering second line support for all technically related issues. These issues range from a simple log in problem with an email address, to a faulty cable within a telephone exchange. No two days are exactly the same and this is what I love most about my job. I interact with many different people each day, whether I'm speaking to them over the phone or replying to their emails.

Sometimes the going gets tough, like everything. I just look past the hard times, seek out ways to improve the situation and just get going. I do genuinely adore my job and I wouldn't change it for the world. I have only been there just over a year but I have never felt so happy to walk through those office doors each morning (immensely sad, I know).

Relationship

I've been with my girlfriend for almost 2 years now and I love every aspect of her. Her body, her mind and spirit. She always does good in everything she participates in and it's great to be with her. We don't live together unfortunately, which can sometimes be a real pain. The worst part is being together non-stop for a week and then spending the next few nights apart.

When I found out I was going to be a father, I was utterly shocked. I didn't know what I was going to do and I was genuinely worried about the whole thing. I guess that's normal but I sure as hell didn't think so at the time. Sam (my girlfriend, if you hadn't guessed when I used the name) had missed her time of the month and this was the first sign of something occurring. She was almost never late. We bought a test, which conveniently had two in the pack, and both came back positive - I was going to be a father.

To be perfectly honest, I was secretly loving the idea but dominating that suppressed feeling were mixed emotions of worry, guilt and anxiety. My main worry was finances. We couldn't even afford our own home, how on earth were we going to afford an extra mouth to feed. The guilt was down to my age. For some stupid reason I felt that I had let my parents down by entering parenthood so early in my life. The anxiety was the not knowing. I hate not knowing things and this was totally out of my comfort zone.

Me and Sam talked it over to great lengths and at one stage both of our minds seemed set on a termination. Looking back, I am so glad that we did not travel this path. After finally deciding to keep the baby and give a real go of it, we spoke to the Doctor and got ourselves booked in at the hospital to see our Midwife. I'm going to fast forward a few weeks now as I am already rambling. When I attended Sam's dating scan I didn't really know what to expect. All these emotions were starting to boil again. However, the first time I laid eyes on my unborn baby, moving about within the womb I was awestruck. It was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen.

Anyway, Sam is the best part of 19 weeks now and on the 9th November we will be going to the 20 week scan. This will be the most nerve racking part of the pregnancy thus far - it is the time they check for physical abnormalities with the baby. We have already been told it is a low risk pregnancy, and all of Sam's vital readings are perfect so I don't really have any major worries. A slight worry will always be there and again I have attributed this as being "normal". Who knows what the future holds, I only hope there will be something of it left for my child to grow up comfortably and successfully. I will do everything in my power to make sure that happens.

Hobbies

In my spare time, I partake in a lot of reading. My favourite genre being fantasy. Witches, ghouls and things that go bump in the night, but all from totally imaginary worlds. I have to say, without a doubt, my favourite of these has to be The Spooks series. If you haven't heard of these then I implore you to give them a go. It's one of those stories that draws you in and keeps you there until you have read every little word and sentence. I will often stay up well into the early hours without realising, thinking to myself "I can't stop here, one more chapter". It feels like that one more chapter never materialises!

I also have a keen interest in programming and gaming, my platform of choice being my Xbox 360. Part of me sometimes feels like I'm not a real man. I hold no interest in sport, bottom of my list being football. To me, they are just a bunch of super-sized babies being paid rediculous sums of money to kick a round piece of fabric/leather/plastic, whatever it is, around some grass for 90 minutes. /Rant

Alas, the end

If you have read this far, congratulations, it looks like we will get on quite well! I thank you for taking the time to acknowledge this and delve into the life of Nath. I appreciate your time, and until I next ramble, take care.

-Nath